Finished Exams? What a strange feeling...

Social mutterings? After a week of study, 10 days of exam block and the last mad dash of both Calculus and Indonesian in one day. My mind isn't up to its normal analytical framework. Its funny that I never the less find myself drawn here... I should have warned myself before I started anything that blogging would be addictive, particularly to my own personality. One of those highly strung, easily stressed personalities which lends itself to addiction of all kinds, that's me! I suppose its lucky I grew up the way I did with education and Church as valued parts of the week rather than falling victim to more negative forms of addiction early in life.

I bring up addiction partly because of the brand new blogging habit I seem to have developed. More of a Journal 2.0 that allows me to type rather that scribble though isn't it? But partly because of the varied array of minor addictions I managed to concoct throughout my study time. I am willing to admit to watching 2 seasons of a

anime cartoon I was a fan of... more than 6 years ago! and playing a gameboy emulator for many hours of the old classic 'Pokemon'. Both are things I was into before I was a teenager and swore never to repeat.

Yet I found myself at a time when I should have studying my arse off - something I was not to discover until the panick attack of Physics part of the way through exam block I could not study. There were points where every inch of my consciousness wanted study and yet I couldn't break the hypotic lure of the TV shows and computer games. More than that the breaking of one addiction would simply encourage a different one. I managed to convince myself not to watch for a couple hours... and I find myself staring and the never changing Facebook screen.

The marvelous thing of Facebook addiction - millions of people addicted to sitting WAITING for somebody else to do something so they can maybe/maybe not comment on it. Even knowing I'm one of the number I'm not quite sure what the mystical lure of the never changing wall is. I do know you are willing to claim 'Friend' of people you NEVER liked simply to have something to display at more frequent intervals. I think I have done more pointless quizzes on there than I have constructive conversations with people in the last few weeks.

Exam period has the ability to isolate a person. No easy task considering I live, work and more often than not play with 39 other people. More specifically my hall way of 4. However with one girl spending much of her time with her boyfriend rather than in her own room and the others being engineering students who finished exams early and got the hell away from this place... It has been pretty lonely around here for a view days. Plus I've been attempting to do all the study I DIDN'T do in the study week. So I haven't left this filthy study cave - which isn't actually that filthy - my bed is made and my floor is vacumned - its more just of a mental filthiness.

Its going to be good to get out and do something tomorrow. No more exams hanging over my head... Maybe after a good night of sleep my brain might start to register the fact it doesn't have anything to stress about. Though being the stress orientated person I am it'll probably find something. The real question is what to do with myself?

Well for the rest of the week whatever I'm told to do... I'm not sure if it is an advantage or disadvantage to this doing of university boarding school style? Much in the theme of the last weeks of school term in primary school we are resorting to playing sports and watching movies (with pointless questions to answer) - tomorrow at least. However on Saturday morning.... bright and early I'll be flying my way back to the great state of Queensland. For those of you who'd understand, Queensland has generally more friendly winter weather than the rather unglorious inland hole that is Canberra. Though I've heard it has been unfashionably cold in Queensland... but still I've done Disney On Ice impressions on the frost around here already... So 5 degrees at night wont be nearly so bad. It'll be normal!

Well as always I have amazed even myself at my ability to babble about things that only I care even the slightest bit about :). However nows about a good time for me to be getting my stuff together and heading to bed. To the majority of the.. of the world I guess... nine thirty is an insane time to contemplate sleep. I know for a fact my american friends stay up to 2, 3, 4 in the morning consistently. I don't know any of my australian friends who would match that... Or at least not without alcohol somewhere in the equation. However 10 o'clock is a good time for going to bed when you start you day every day at 6... So must be heading to that delightful thing across the room and sleeping away the residual exam stress... Yipee!