My Dearest Plinky,
You seem to have got me good today. 'Describe something I lost and I want back.' I can think of a few petty things I wouldn't mind having back - my old purple phone after I left it at a motel, my comfy shoes that died of old age and hell even just my old copy of the first ever Australian Mills and Boon Duet I had a couple years back. But I can't think of anything significant, something life changing to talk about for this topic.
It isn't to say I haven't lost things. Haven't outgrown, matured past or outlived things. Pets have died, grandparents have died, toys have fallen apart, friends have grown apart - particularly post school. But even the bigger of those things like family and friends I may miss but I don't want the back.
So that is going to sound strange to a lot of people. Isn't missing something to want them back... yes and no. Sure you can say it would be nice to have them back, but life moves on. The things you'd have to do to go back there generally (to me) make it not worth it.
So only three paragraphs in I've almost worked out what it is I'm talking about. My school friends. Its funny how you don't believe you will lose them after school. I don't have the same close group of friends I had at school any more. Sad and often after a weekend of doing uni work I am in my room going stir crazy and I miss them. I'd kill for a msn conversation like I had back in school. Hell, right now, sitting in my family home (I'm on holidays), I'd kill to have friends abound to catch up with.
So why don't I want them back? That wouldn't solve any problems. Friends are nice its true but to have them as the friends I had at school I'd need to still be here in town, still live at home, still have things in common with them. I like my life as it is now too much to want that. I don't want what I had in the past, I want new and different experiences now instead.
Yours in Boredom,
Peaches
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