Trying a New Thing

Ok... So engineering degrees are so much more painful than I ever imagined... I only changed one subject to go from my light and easy science degree to this hard core constant death elec eng course... Apparently that is all it takes... I mean Indonesian wasn't what I would call easy... For the mathematically minded it was my worst subject... I had the analytical side of things down.... Language is simply a code... you have to learn how you can but the pieces together in ways that make sense... But to speak it? yeah... not so good... Plus... there are all those little things with the code puzzle that you can't quite understand... like why can i say this... but not that? in English it would work just fine... pfft if all languages are not going to be the same they could at least follow similar rules... Thats just me wishing a could be learning languages still :( not until third year when I get some semi free electives.




Well as you can probably tell this is rather different to most of my earlier posts. My brain has imploded and I am not longer curious about anything nor do I have the time I have had in past to ponder. Well I still do at times... but it is in general entirely unproductive to the extent of there being no real topic or base. Which isn't to say it isn't interesting at times, it is always interesting to sit back and see how the most seemingly random things are connected somewhere deep inside your brain. It is a game my brain is particularly good for... for an analytical thinker my brain follows some particularly convoluted paths at times. I would probably say that it meanders. More because I love the word than for any practical purpose : P.

So this... Right here and now? Is me procrastinating bad. I'm avoiding my pre-lab report for tomorrow's lab. Notably it IS tomorrow's lab so I'll have to get into it after I've typed for a bit. I was starting to feel pretty bad for not having written on here in ages. Though it was essentially because all good things I once had to say (yes I know its a thing of perception but to me they were good) have left me. I could regale you with tales of op amps and high pass filters... about which I handed in a lab just yesterday. But I would probably be telling you wrong things... 32 pages dedicated to nothingness was basically my lab report. I actually did not complete about 50% of what was required in the lab report.. Which made for a lot of theorising and not much actual discovery of anything.

To relate back to my title briefly... When I stuck it in there I was referring to the fact that my blogging has completely changed tacks due to my lack of ponderings however I am noticing that it has, in fact, worked a large number of levels. But then with life being a dynamic on so many levels I guess this has to be the way of things doesn't it...

New Things in my life right now -

1. Blessed with a job that doesn't generally require me to work weekends I haven't enjoyed a proper weekend (due to work and not typical uni-ness) in more than a month
2. A horrendous crush on one of the guys from my uni christian group - and i really HATE having to use the word crush - it is so very adolescent - but nevertheless this is pathetic enough that that is the only word appropriate
3. A whole new lab report (the sequel to the terror I mentioned a little earlier and its worth an even bigger percentage of my course mark.. darn it!)
4. Academic Struggle - this is where I admit to being your typical high school over achiever who didn't have to put it too much effort to achieve the marks however I also have the disposition that requires to try my arse off if i'm not achieving the top marks - that particular combination makes for a terrible stress at uni i've noticed...
5. Brain block - it isn't writers block I'm not a writer.. but my brain is my best source of entertainment - and occasionally other peoples entertainment (generally unintentionally) - and it just hasn't been doing its thing as well as it usually does...
6. Ebay aversion - ok a self inflicted incident where I purchased a computer completely accidentally... I was bidding for the sake of it expecting somebody else to bid over me... I was new to ebay so I guess the reality of it being real money hadn't quite sunk it... or something... maybe I have a gambling inclination which is makes it a good thing I don't do it... anyhow but apparently that was about the right price for the item cuz people stopped bidding about then too.... opps... ahhh well... every person needs 3 computers... i'll probably pass one on to my bestie or something...

Of course being life I'm sure there are lot more new things in my life... Some good others not so... but that is probably a pretty good list of the things that would be even a little bit interesting... It still feels like I have been going through a stint of change... I'm sure you know the feeling. Change is painful, it pinches and scraps like a bitch (to use the standardised slang of my peer group). Wow and now I am referencing my peer group in my blog entries... I have spent too much time in the last week doing lab reports... This weekend it will be essay writing... no matter how many times I try the excuse I'm an engineer not an arts student, I don't write essays my employer makes me take this additional course, basically a english communications subject or something, which is all about how to write letters and documents and academic essays and conduct speeches and the like.... Not fun... It is even run by the oddest instructor imaginable... but then anybody who can feel as passionately for the correct layout for an address block has to be a little odd i suppose...

I have procrastinated for too long... I probably wont be back for a while again... Sad though it is for the nobody that will probably read this : P.